....Vent (Mostly at self )

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This like the title says is a vent journal over something that's been on my mind a lot lately regarding me and one of my friends. I won't name names as I don't want anyone to see me as a victim or flamer or anything, that and they're still a good person in my eye and he/she goes through enough stress and problems as it is anyway. But one thing I will do and always did since birth is speak my mind on how I feel about something, even if it does hurt. And Trust me, Im one to know that the pen is much mightier and more painful than the sword. I've done really stupid things in my time and some of my closer friends know that for a fact. This particular time though? I'm......actually am not sure if it's stupid or smart because I can see it either way at the same time. I know that sounds weird, but its true. In some ways, Im willing to bet that it's both ways this time too. Let's start with respect, for starters. Respect is when you acknowledge someone and their feelings on something and will listen when they say "no". In a way, I feel like I failed there tonight not because I wouldn't accept what the friend said, but because I didn't handle what I said or my words correctly. For that, I truly apologize to my friend, if the person even still sees me as one now. I've been under stress for a while now too, and Im sorry for how came out: I think it came out the wrong way despite my best intentions. People who read this: ALWAYS watch what you say and ALWAYS choose your words wisely. You'll go all the further in life if you do and have many more friends. Even if you do, sometimes people just won't see eye to eye with you, maybe that person's meant to be your friend? Maybe you're not meant to be friends after all? On something like that, only time will tell. and you should let that person decide it for themselves whether it hurts you and how you feel or not. I'd absolutely love to stay friends with this person, I really hope we do, but if a rift is made somewhere, you just gotta ride it out and hope for the best in the end. Again, sometimes some things are meant to be and other things aren't. You gotta own up to your mistakes either way and learn from them regardless of what happens. Storms happen in friendships, thats how life goes.  

Another thing to know is not to assume things all the time, it can hurt your friends feelings and make them feel bad whether they really did anything or not. Never judge. No one's gonna be perfect, but you mustn't assume bad things about them over a mistake they made in the past either. I spoke my mind about that to the person, and while I truly regret the result of it, I don't regret having finally spoken up at all. Its much better to lose the friend over telling the truth than to keep the friend over sugarcoating it so much that it's barely even real anymore. I admit my faults: Im sometimes rude, blunt, easy to anger, and rather irritable and easily stressful. Lately just stressful. But I don't judge someone on one thing that went wrong before and I certainly won't start now. No I won't saying that the person was too judgemental either, I do agree with some of their points. I won't agree with all of them, but I will agree with some of them. Like I said, no one's perfect and you shouldn't expect them to be. I admit that what I said might have been in some ways bad, what my friend said in return was in some ways bad. Yet as they say, again, "The Truth hurts". I think it can be said for both sides tonight. *sigh* Thats the problem with arguments: There's no winner for either side, only losers. I admit Im upset even as I type this, but maybe what I said and what the person said in return was for the best? I dunno. But I do know that every friendship has its rocky roads and in the end, you just gotta respect each other whether you agree with the person or not. Respect is a HUGE part of friendship just like trust. Without that trust or at least respect for the person, you can't expect them to return the same. I'll stick by some of the things I've said to the friend, but as to the other things....I really do regret them. If that person is reading this or even blocks me or something, I understand them for being upset too. I know they've been having things hard lately, I was too. But Im sorry for having added to that hardship with my words. I won't talk to him/her for a while yet as they asked me not to and also because I feel I did enough damage as it is. Now its time to let time heal the wound. Again, Im sorry for what happened and Im sorry for having handled everything so poorly. I hope things turn out better for you in the end.

Thats it for my vent, I hope the advice was good. Sorry it was so dang long folks Sweating a little...  But I'll end with this. 

"The Pen is Mightier than the Sword". It can help, it can hurt. Use it wisely.  Have a good night everyone.

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Lemonade-Raid's avatar
Ehh I know how you feel, hurting a friend is just terrible. And remember, I speak from experience on this XD
But if you guys are really meant to be, this will all blow over in time. Just pray for a conclusion to come and I'm sure it'll resolve itself eventually! Because I mean, if one of you hurt the other because of a misunderstanding or just some hard feelings or that...it can all be forgiven. Because the two key things for a healthy friendship are loyalty and trust. The latter can take some time to build but...once you've got it, you're pretty much stuck with it.
But for me...well, it was a lot more complicated than that. Heck, I thought I was over it but the other day an old memory popped up and made me even more sore than I thought I'd be XD Moving on isn't easy...that's why I hope you and your friend stay on good terms.
If you ever want to vent about it, you know where to find me. ^^ You helped me before and I'm willing to help now!:hug: